it is time for school holidays! yup, lot of things to think about (Oh Gosh) i would usually spend my time thinking of what i'm going to be and what i'm going to do in the future because thinking is kind of like my habit when i have a lot of time to spend. and oh no, i dont use my time wisely by studying for PMR for the first week of school holidays. why would i do that? xd. my mother always scold me for saying this.
and today aha! i was thinking of which university i'm going to choose for my future. i scrambled a book with my second brother which called the 'Top Universities Guide 2010'. the book was written by 3 men and it says about universities and stuff which i dont even want to be bothered about. i would like to say my brother did use his time to wait for the book by using the computer downstairs (suit yourself then)but i did love to have the book for a long time (u know what, i did that on purpose).
and the universities that i had chose for a long time ago remain the same. but there is possibility to go there if i had chosen Sri Aman (P) as my secondary school. but ibn khaldun... i dont know.
i argued with my mother about this today. she said that 'think positive, there's an opportunity for you to go there if you work hard.' but i was like really? i never ever have my trust on that. all i believe is that ibn khaldun students would end up to the middle east to continue their studies. but that 's not in my life, i dont want that to happen seriously. and because of that i started thinking of the reasons why should i stay in ibn khaldun and why would i strive for something that may end up well... not like i wanted it to be?
i'm not an ibn khaldun student for such a long time and i never understands them. i had once dug up the past with my mother about how comfortable i was with my old friends in Sk Sri Petaling and etc. but thank God in 2011, two heroins came out of nowhere took their feet on the ground of Ibn Khaldun to safe me from being desperate in having my old life back. these girls are the twins :D. ha,ha. najib and the bee. gosh! i wanted to write a book about that! (sorry)
aaahhhhhhhh! hard lament from me :D great! one thing for sure right now i dont know where i'm going to be in the future but what i know is that.......?? i have my friends on my side. last years, i had Nurdina Hanis Zainal Abidin to be on my side but now she is still but i'm going to add 2 more: Fatimah Najeebah and Fatimah Nabeebah. and yeah plus me Fatimah Nizam. and oh yeah! Rabekq: u're probably on the list but we are not so close yet, are we? gonna work hard for that man and it's not going to be easy and it's not going to be tough too though.
yup! got a newsletter for the world wide!
Thursday, 2 June 2011
Saturday, 14 May 2011
exams
ahhhh, i am not stressed but i'm just having a rest. nah, i didnt study in the morning. i have just gone back from my tuition and this week is an examination week for me and it would lasts for 3 weeks. i just cant imagine how happy i would be when the examination is over. but i think i'm not going for the school's vacation because ...i'm wondering whether is it going to be absolutely fun or what?
haha, there's no point for saying that lol.
exams i'm going smash u to the ground and hopefully gonna get straight A's. but i honestly know that i wouldnt get A for BA1 because i did memorise it but i got blurred and jammed at the time when i was taking the exam. totally horrible and stinks (but it doesnt smell like one). but yeah, it's my fault. i was fully jam packed and couldnt tear out my skin to get out from it literally and i'm talking rubbish.
is this a newsletter for the world wide? u determine it yourself
haha, there's no point for saying that lol.
exams i'm going smash u to the ground and hopefully gonna get straight A's. but i honestly know that i wouldnt get A for BA1 because i did memorise it but i got blurred and jammed at the time when i was taking the exam. totally horrible and stinks (but it doesnt smell like one). but yeah, it's my fault. i was fully jam packed and couldnt tear out my skin to get out from it literally and i'm talking rubbish.
is this a newsletter for the world wide? u determine it yourself
Wednesday, 20 April 2011
today is Gorgeous! and maybe tomorrow too...
ahhhhh, cant wait for tomorrow! and absolutely today is fantastic! i dont know why and when it happens but what i know is that my day is a little bit rough but gorgeous! because of what?
kick me on the head! (sumimasen) but it's all because that i always keep on thinking about my mom in Japan today. i kind of felt a little bit stress when my teacher said that urhh 'You're gonna memorise that. you are gonna finish that. i'm gonna give you that.'
seriously you were making me mad. but i'm not mad... because the first reason is that my mom is going home tomorrow and the second one is that...:
in surah al-baqarah and i dont know which sentence but it means that everything that Allah has determine for you is what you deserve and what you can handle. those words always make me strong (Oh Yeah!) but cant be as strong as my brother yet. i played that hand wrestling with my second bro and i lost... aha.... but i'm gonna fight till the end of the world. but..... i dont have time for hand wrestling anymore..( Bo Yeah)
but still the sentence are meant for all of us... Good luck in your life guys!
i got a newsletter for the world guys! does anyone has a postman? because i forgot to ask the postman to deliver it for me. ahhh, i got blogger :D
kick me on the head! (sumimasen) but it's all because that i always keep on thinking about my mom in Japan today. i kind of felt a little bit stress when my teacher said that urhh 'You're gonna memorise that. you are gonna finish that. i'm gonna give you that.'
seriously you were making me mad. but i'm not mad... because the first reason is that my mom is going home tomorrow and the second one is that...:
in surah al-baqarah and i dont know which sentence but it means that everything that Allah has determine for you is what you deserve and what you can handle. those words always make me strong (Oh Yeah!) but cant be as strong as my brother yet. i played that hand wrestling with my second bro and i lost... aha.... but i'm gonna fight till the end of the world. but..... i dont have time for hand wrestling anymore..( Bo Yeah)
but still the sentence are meant for all of us... Good luck in your life guys!
i got a newsletter for the world guys! does anyone has a postman? because i forgot to ask the postman to deliver it for me. ahhh, i got blogger :D
Monday, 18 April 2011
LIFE
well, life could be fancy and it may be dreadful for most of us who are living in this world. most people describes the world as horrible, pity, brutal, cruel and many more. it is in many ways as we cannot see the reason why we're living in this world and how we cannot be honest even to ourselves.
to girls, your life could be wonderful if you are honest but apparently you'll never be as you always be ashamed of something that you have done. yes honestly the shame that you got is something that you deserve but dont you ever think that a change would make a difference? take you opportunity because 'opportunity knocks but just once.' if you open the door and let it slip away, it would not turn back to find its way to find you back. if u have done something that is dreadfully wrong, face the fact and take the punishment that you deserve but it wouldn't last forever because happiness lies there in the end.
to the boys , i hate to say this but you are never as loyal as you said. this is the part that i hate the most. boys love to pretend that they are innocent when they are doing something wrong but logically they are wrong. even though you're trying to keep it as a secret but remember, secret are not meant to be kept forever because one day it'll be revealed and at that time is is too late for you to regret because of something that you have done.
i got a story to tell you guys. at my tuition there was a boy who studies in the same school of mine and my friend. he was apparently kept sending letters to my friend, this fellow who i thought for the first time was a person who has an attitude of being socialize.i asked my friend what was going on and she told me everything. that man, who was sitting behind in the class in that very moment was a hypocrite! he pretended to be innocent since the first time he sent letters to my friend to be given to her neighbour, which was a girl.
to that boy i'm going say this 'You are a COWARD but since then you still wanted to be a hero. you are a HYPOCRITE but you still wanted to be beautiful in looks. you are guilty and would always be if you don take your opportunity to change.'
life would be dreadful but in the same time it could be wonderful but it would not last forever. determine your life as you have the right to determine your path.
the peace is in there, it's time for you to hold it against you as it would never always lay there.
to girls, your life could be wonderful if you are honest but apparently you'll never be as you always be ashamed of something that you have done. yes honestly the shame that you got is something that you deserve but dont you ever think that a change would make a difference? take you opportunity because 'opportunity knocks but just once.' if you open the door and let it slip away, it would not turn back to find its way to find you back. if u have done something that is dreadfully wrong, face the fact and take the punishment that you deserve but it wouldn't last forever because happiness lies there in the end.
to the boys , i hate to say this but you are never as loyal as you said. this is the part that i hate the most. boys love to pretend that they are innocent when they are doing something wrong but logically they are wrong. even though you're trying to keep it as a secret but remember, secret are not meant to be kept forever because one day it'll be revealed and at that time is is too late for you to regret because of something that you have done.
i got a story to tell you guys. at my tuition there was a boy who studies in the same school of mine and my friend. he was apparently kept sending letters to my friend, this fellow who i thought for the first time was a person who has an attitude of being socialize.i asked my friend what was going on and she told me everything. that man, who was sitting behind in the class in that very moment was a hypocrite! he pretended to be innocent since the first time he sent letters to my friend to be given to her neighbour, which was a girl.
to that boy i'm going say this 'You are a COWARD but since then you still wanted to be a hero. you are a HYPOCRITE but you still wanted to be beautiful in looks. you are guilty and would always be if you don take your opportunity to change.'
life would be dreadful but in the same time it could be wonderful but it would not last forever. determine your life as you have the right to determine your path.
the peace is in there, it's time for you to hold it against you as it would never always lay there.
Sunday, 17 April 2011
Thursday, 14 April 2011
Undescribe Feeling
It was when a day where i got the chance to meet something new. i was quite excited with everything that happened around me including new friends, new teachers and new circumstances. everything was vagued and would never be described by words. and that day was the day i met him.
i was kind of blurred with my thoughts for the first time. i was new there and i could not even recognize every classmate of mine which were girls and were super-talented. i was like 'is this for real? why my feeling for a sudden is unpredictable and at the same time it is totally cannot be described ?' it was so confused and i have been like this twice in my life before but it have never been for real.
then i thought, what if i could not afford it? what if i dont deserve it in my life? what if that was just an illusion that would make me unawake with my desires? my heart kept on forcing me to get to know him more and more. i cannot even control my mind and my actions toward him. i wanted everything about him to be real in my life. i was so greedy and yet thought it was all mine. it has to be destined as mine.
then i thought for a few seconds again, what about what had been totally agreed? i mean, what i had thought a minute ago was not something that has been guaranteed. what about something that has been guaranteed by God Himself? the mind of mine kept searching for the truth. in the nick of time, i finally got an answer. there is something that has been guaranteed by God and it is not just for me, it is for everyone in the world and it is not just for this century, it is for every century that lies until the end of the world. it sounds like 'Every grateful man is for every thankful woman, every incredible man is for every wonderful womanand every evil man is for every bad woman.' and those words had finally solved my thoughtful mind.
and for this time, it was for real. but it was not for real in being one, it was for real in being as a lesson for me in my whole entire life. i need to tossle with my own desires because it is the best for me to get the best.
'Hey! who are you starring at?' one of my new friends called me. and this was my answer 'umm, nothing. i was just wondering about something.' my friend felt confused and eventually ignored and left me standing alone.
'Ah, let it be as it could be discussed in the future.' and that was exactly the end that made me felt so satisfied with everything.
(this is a newsletter to share for the world wide)
i was kind of blurred with my thoughts for the first time. i was new there and i could not even recognize every classmate of mine which were girls and were super-talented. i was like 'is this for real? why my feeling for a sudden is unpredictable and at the same time it is totally cannot be described ?' it was so confused and i have been like this twice in my life before but it have never been for real.
then i thought, what if i could not afford it? what if i dont deserve it in my life? what if that was just an illusion that would make me unawake with my desires? my heart kept on forcing me to get to know him more and more. i cannot even control my mind and my actions toward him. i wanted everything about him to be real in my life. i was so greedy and yet thought it was all mine. it has to be destined as mine.
then i thought for a few seconds again, what about what had been totally agreed? i mean, what i had thought a minute ago was not something that has been guaranteed. what about something that has been guaranteed by God Himself? the mind of mine kept searching for the truth. in the nick of time, i finally got an answer. there is something that has been guaranteed by God and it is not just for me, it is for everyone in the world and it is not just for this century, it is for every century that lies until the end of the world. it sounds like 'Every grateful man is for every thankful woman, every incredible man is for every wonderful womanand every evil man is for every bad woman.' and those words had finally solved my thoughtful mind.
and for this time, it was for real. but it was not for real in being one, it was for real in being as a lesson for me in my whole entire life. i need to tossle with my own desires because it is the best for me to get the best.
'Hey! who are you starring at?' one of my new friends called me. and this was my answer 'umm, nothing. i was just wondering about something.' my friend felt confused and eventually ignored and left me standing alone.
'Ah, let it be as it could be discussed in the future.' and that was exactly the end that made me felt so satisfied with everything.
(this is a newsletter to share for the world wide)
Tuesday, 12 April 2011
SCHOOL
sometimes school could be apparently annoying but sometimes it could be fun. in the last few weeks, i'm kind of enjoyed my days in school. and i got a new twin neighbourhood at school from kelantan. 'sorry! sumimasen! i dont understand kelantanese language.'
but she can talk normal luckily.
moreover, the teachers are okay. in the last few months i kind of have a feeling like hating some of the teachers but now i know how to handle them, and how to handle myself of course!
days passed in a glimpse and i knew that the more days passed the lesser time i got to prepare myself for PMR. but there's no use for saying it, i need to work hard for it in a smart way for getting excellent result in PMR.
arigato' and pray that i'll get 9A's.
but she can talk normal luckily.
moreover, the teachers are okay. in the last few months i kind of have a feeling like hating some of the teachers but now i know how to handle them, and how to handle myself of course!
days passed in a glimpse and i knew that the more days passed the lesser time i got to prepare myself for PMR. but there's no use for saying it, i need to work hard for it in a smart way for getting excellent result in PMR.
arigato' and pray that i'll get 9A's.
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